I was recently talking with a lady whose life was falling apart. As we sat there, I listened to the hopelessness in her voice, and it became apparent that she was not a believer. I tried sharing with her how Christ had always been there for me, even in the darkest of days He’d neverContinue reading “Transparency”
Category Archives: depression
Eyes Forward
I had a dream the other night. I don’t remember any of it other than I was perusing titles of books, one title caught my eye “Looking Ass Forwards.” When I woke up this is all I could remember. After a long night with very little sleep, I was disturbed to say the least. IContinue reading “Eyes Forward”
Perfect Love
“There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear.” This is one of my favorite verses but to be honest, it’s always bothered me. I loved the idea of it, but what does fear and love have to do with each other? What exactly does perfect love look like and how canContinue reading “Perfect Love”
Peace
There are times God answers prayers so quickly that we are left standing in awe. Then other times we beg for answers and feel like we are met with empty silence. One night recently I woke up unable to move my left arm. Figuring I slept on it wrong and there was just a lackContinue reading “Peace”
Feels
I was talking to my younger brother the other day and he said, “Man, that hit me right in the feels!” I realized I must be getting old because I had no idea what he was talking about. I guess it’s the new hip way to say that it made you emotional, or that itContinue reading “Feels”
Life from Death
My brother recently said something along the lines of, “In our lives we experience many deaths, the death of a dream, the death of a loved one, the death of our youth and our health. We may mourn each of these deaths in our lives but we have to remember that God always seeks to bringContinue reading “Life from Death”
Blessings
Someone recently asked me, “What does God want for you?” Having gone to church my whole life and having had a personal relationship with Christ for over 30 years, I was embarrassed to realize I didn’t have an answer. I sat there like a deer in the headlights. I was wracking my brain trying toContinue reading “Blessings”
The Body
As someone who lives with chronic pain I’ve found myself asking many times, why pain? When I was younger my mom read us a book called “The Gift of Pain.” This was over twenty-five years ago so the details may be fuzzy but I remember being fascinated. The doctor who wrote the book discussed hisContinue reading “The Body”
Darkness
Darkness seems to surround us like a heavy blanket. It seems to be the constant, ever present shadow that hangs over us. Seems like everyone I talk to is in the fight of their life. Two of my closest friends have family members that are suicidal and fighting major mental and emotional issues. One ofContinue reading “Darkness”
Sadness and Joy
“So lay down your burdens, lay down your shame. All who are broken lift up your face. Oh, wanderer, come home. You’re not too far. So lay down your hurt, lay down your heart. Come as you are.” ~ Come As Your Are by Crowder As I sit here this morning drinking coffee, I findContinue reading “Sadness and Joy”
Calm
After a big storm there’s an eerie calm that settles over everything like a comforting blanket. It feels almost dream-like. It goes from chaos, pounding rain, roaring wind, darkness, and being trapped inside the house, to stepping out to feel the warmth of the sun on your face, and complete silence. The crickets, cicadas, frogs,Continue reading “Calm”
Memories
Memories are interesting. When our son was 16 we convinced to go see a counselor. His best friend was the one who sexually molested our daughter and he was dealing with guilt and shame and had started vaping to cope. My husband and I went with him for the first session. The counselor started withContinue reading “Memories”
Guilt
It’s amazing how long the memory of pain can stay with you. I had just dropped my son, Justice, off at a baseball game for pre-game warm ups, when Faith said, ”Silly brother, he just fell off the fence!” I pulled the car back into the parking place and told my daughter to sit andContinue reading “Guilt”
Self-Reliance
So, my husband has been gone now for almost 2 months, or 8 weeks, or 56 days or 1,344 hours….you get the point. It’s been a long time. He had to leave for work and was only supposed to be gone 3-4 weeks but nothing went according to plan, so here I sit counting doneContinue reading “Self-Reliance”
Disturbance
I’ve learned that watching the weather in the South is similar to watching a soap opera. Entering from stage south we have tropical disturbance 99 but little does it know it’s coming into a very hostile atmospheric situation, causing little more than some cloudy skies and some minor rain fall. But wait, what’s this? IsabelContinue reading “Disturbance”
Pause….continued
There’s times in life where we ask God why and are met with nothing but silence. On occasion He decides to graciously lift the vail and reveal just a hint of what He’s accomplishing behind the scenes. I don’t know if I can do this story justice but I have to share the miracle thatContinue reading “Pause….continued”
Pause
As I was sitting here praying about what to write, I received a phone call from the doctor. I just had my first mammogram this week and let me tell you something, those things hurt!!! I’d heard that they were uncomfortable but as my knees buckled from the pain and I was suspended by onlyContinue reading “Pause”
The Future
I can’t believe summer is almost over already! Less than three weeks before school is back in full swing. And to be honest I’m not sure if I’m dreading it or looking forward to the routine again. I think the future always holds a little bit of a bitter sweet appeal to it. I’m gratefulContinue reading “The Future”
God is Bigger
I stumbled across something in the book of Job the other day that left me in awe. For those of you who are unfamiliar with this story it goes something like this… Satan comes before God and innocently states he’s been out roaming the earth, yet we all know “the devil walks about like aContinue reading “God is Bigger”
Fear
A pastor once said that fear stands for Fake Evidence Appearing Real. Ten days ago my husband and I were rear-ended. My husband had a stiff neck and headaches off and on for awhile but seems to be back to normal. Unfortunately, due to my genetic disorder I don’t bounce back quite as well. TheContinue reading “Fear”
Emotions
I grew up in a family of seven kids. I have two older biological brothers and four adopted siblings. I was seven when my family grew immediately with the adoption of three children from Korea, 2 girls and a boy. That story needs it’s own day, but to put it simply they had been throughContinue reading “Emotions”
Depression and Anxiety
If you have ever battled depression and anxiety, you know they are worthy foes. I recently saw this description of them ~ Depression is when you don’t really care about anything. Anxiety is when you care too much about everything. And having both is just like hell. In a previous post I told y’all IContinue reading “Depression and Anxiety”
Invisible
When I was little I tried desperately to not be noticed because if I was noticed I might get in trouble, or even worse I might get pointed out as an example of how to be the “perfect” child making me an enemy to all. So I made a career out of being invisible thinkingContinue reading “Invisible”
Beautifully Broken 