Life from Death

My brother recently said something along the lines of, “In our lives we experience many deaths, the death of a dream, the death of a loved one, the death of our youth and our health. We may mourn each of these deaths in our lives but we have to remember that God always seeks to bringContinue reading “Life from Death”

Blessings

Someone recently asked me, “What does God want for you?”  Having gone to church my whole life and having had a personal relationship with Christ for over 30 years, I was embarrassed to realize I didn’t have an answer.  I sat there like a deer in the headlights.  I was wracking my brain trying toContinue reading “Blessings”

The Body

As someone who lives with chronic pain I’ve found myself asking many times, why pain?  When I was younger my mom read us a book called “The Gift of Pain.”  This was over twenty-five years ago so the details may be fuzzy but I remember being fascinated.  The doctor who wrote the book discussed hisContinue reading “The Body”

Darkness

Darkness seems to surround us like a heavy blanket.  It seems to be the constant, ever present shadow that hangs over us.  Seems like everyone I talk to is in the fight of their life.  Two of my closest friends have family members that are suicidal and fighting major mental and emotional issues.  One ofContinue reading “Darkness”

Sadness and Joy

“So lay down your burdens, lay down your shame. All who are broken lift up your face. Oh, wanderer, come home. You’re not too far. So lay down your hurt, lay down your heart. Come as you are.” ~ Come As Your Are by Crowder As I sit here this morning drinking coffee, I findContinue reading “Sadness and Joy”

Calm

After a big storm there’s an eerie calm that settles over everything like a comforting blanket. It feels almost dream-like. It goes from chaos, pounding rain, roaring wind, darkness, and being trapped inside the house, to stepping out to feel the warmth of the sun on your face, and complete silence. The crickets, cicadas, frogs,Continue reading “Calm”

Memories

Memories are interesting. When our son was 16 we convinced to go see a counselor. His best friend was the one who sexually molested our daughter and he was dealing with guilt and shame and had started vaping to cope. My husband and I went with him for the first session. The counselor started withContinue reading “Memories”

Guilt

It’s amazing how long the memory of pain can stay with you. I had just dropped my son, Justice, off at a baseball game for pre-game warm ups, when Faith said, ”Silly brother, he just fell off the fence!” I pulled the car back into the parking place and told my daughter to sit andContinue reading “Guilt”

Self-Reliance

So, my husband has been gone now for almost 2 months, or 8 weeks, or 56 days or 1,344 hours….you get the point. It’s been a long time. He had to leave for work and was only supposed to be gone 3-4 weeks but nothing went according to plan, so here I sit counting doneContinue reading “Self-Reliance”

Disturbance

I’ve learned that watching the weather in the South is similar to watching a soap opera. Entering from stage south we have tropical disturbance 99 but little does it know it’s coming into a very hostile atmospheric situation, causing little more than some cloudy skies and some minor rain fall. But wait, what’s this? IsabelContinue reading “Disturbance”

Pause

As I was sitting here praying about what to write, I received a phone call from the doctor. I just had my first mammogram this week and let me tell you something, those things hurt!!! I’d heard that they were uncomfortable but as my knees buckled from the pain and I was suspended by onlyContinue reading “Pause”

God is Bigger

I stumbled across something in the book of Job the other day that left me in awe. For those of you who are unfamiliar with this story it goes something like this… Satan comes before God and innocently states he’s been out roaming the earth, yet we all know “the devil walks about like aContinue reading “God is Bigger”

Fear

A pastor once said that fear stands for Fake Evidence Appearing Real. Ten days ago my husband and I were rear-ended. My husband had a stiff neck and headaches off and on for awhile but seems to be back to normal. Unfortunately, due to my genetic disorder I don’t bounce back quite as well. TheContinue reading “Fear”

Depression and Anxiety

If you have ever battled depression and anxiety, you know they are worthy foes. I recently saw this description of them ~ Depression is when you don’t really care about anything. Anxiety is when you care too much about everything. And having both is just like hell. In a previous post I told y’all IContinue reading “Depression and Anxiety”

Invisible

When I was little I tried desperately to not be noticed because if I was noticed I might get in trouble, or even worse I might get pointed out as an example of how to be the “perfect” child making me an enemy to all.  So I made a career out of being invisible thinkingContinue reading “Invisible”